Well, it’s been a minute.
Actually, it’s been many minutes because I took an unplanned blogging hiatus as life continued around me.
I do not regret it…not one bit.
You see, I hadn’t realized this, but I was wearing myself thin. My brain was constantly in “work hard” mode and I mentally succumbed to this thought process that I had no time to “play hard.”
What exactly is “play hard?” You hear all the time this motto many proudly state as their own: Work hard, play hard. However, for me, as a Type-A perfectionist with a tendency to over achieve at whatever I do, “playing hard” does not always come easily, or naturally, to me.
I get stuck in the “work hard” cycle and rarely allow myself to “play hard.”
This does not necessarily mean I am a workaholic. I love my job and I love what I do every day. Coming to the office is not the issue.
The issue is the thought that I do not deserve to step away from whatever is considered “work” to instead, once in a while, focus my attention on spending time on myself.
Unfortunately for over a year that meant blogging was pushed to the back burner, as well as, a few of my other hobbies. I always said, “It’s not the time,” or “I don’t have time today,” or “There’s something else I should be doing.”
I made excuses for all the reasons why I shouldn’t or couldn’t.
Well, that’s changing. The time is now.
The other day, I needed a break from whatever I was doing (I don’t remember what). I decided to log onto my website for the first time in over a year. I decided to click “Drafts” and read all of the blog posts I was always scared to push live.
That’s when it hit me.
I missed blogging.
I missed getting my thoughts on paper because I wanted to, not because I was expected to.
I missed making time in the day to write, about anything, to no one in particular. To the digital space in the hopes that maybe someone out there would read it, but maybe not.
That’s when I realized that it was time.
The time is now.
To start again. Maybe not as frequently as before, but maybe. Who knows.
I am fighting against my instincts right now to not create a content calendar. You laugh, but I shake my head. I am not going to make this a “work hard” thing. A content calendar and lists and to-dos are part of the “work hard” mentality.
Maybe one day I’ll switch to that, but for now, I will not.
“Play hard” has no restrictions. So therefore, blogging will have no restrictions (for now).
We’ll see how this works.
Maybe I’ll start by finally publishing a few of the drafts…
Or maybe not.
Whatever happens next, it doesn’t matter. I’ll just do it. No overthinking, no worrying, no unrealistic expectations put on myself by me.
The time is now.