There are four parts to my blog post today:
A beginning, a middle, an end, and a “why the heck is Keri even writing this?” (aka a summary). Obviously. But this time, I’m doing something different. I will be “bolding” the four parts so you clearly see how they intertwine with each other.
Behind the Scenes:
You know, some days I have these random thoughts that completely summarize everything I’m feeling.
And then, other days, I have thoughts that don’t apply to any aspect of my life.
Today was Valentine’s Day. Happy Valentine’s Day, by the way!
Throughout the day, I couldn’t make up my mind on whether I liked being single or not.
Random, I know.
Some moments, I had thoughts like, “Yeah! Being a single lady rocks!” and then other times, I had thoughts like, “This stinks. So much.”
My thoughts frequently contradicted each other today. But what else is new?
But then I realized, like with everything else, there are two ways to look at Valentine’s Day.
Either you can look at it as the most awesomest holiday ever where you get to wear red and pink clothing, eat chocolate, and wear a smile all day long…
You can look at it as a day of depression, loneliness, and despair.
OR… (a third option!)
You can look at it like I did, which was to wear happy clothing and eat chocolate, but still feel a teeny bit lonely and a little desperate.
Ha ha ha.
Just kidding. …but seriously.
So what if I’m a little cliche? :
I will admit, I’m a sucker for the cheesy relationship stuff like roses, teddy bears, big hugs, and Halmark cards. I mean, HELLO, I LOVE the movie Valentine’s Day and one of my favorite movies is 27 Dresses. I’m such a girl when it comes to these things, but that’s not necessarily wrong.
It’s OK to like these things and it’s OK to love Valentine’s Day, but don’t forget that it’s not the things that count, but the people.
I know that sounds so cliche, but I feel like a lot of people forget why they celebrate Valentine’s Day. They get so caught up in the commercialism and the idea of love, that they forget to love.
It may be the enormous amounts of Mass Media Communication knowledge in my head right now since I’m studying the psychology behind commercialism in college, or it may just be the many thoughts I had during the day today, but whatever the case… I think that Valentine’s Day is a perfect example of how there are two (sometimes three) ways to view a situation.
Whatever the case, this is what I know:
There is a reason why I’m single right now that I’m still trying to find out. Actually, I take that back. I know why I’m single.
It’s because God has the perfect person made for me and in His timing, I’ll find him.
Like in the many situations I find myself in, I am reminded once again that God’s got this. Yeah, it’d be great to have a guy and a “valentine” on the most romantic holiday of the year, but then again, I’ve been single for this many years, so I can be single for one more…or two, or three…really, I can be single for as long as needed, because that’s what God intended in His story for me.
I’m not going to lie and tell you that it’s easy to see other people’s successful relationships and then realize that I don’t have that. I’m not going to lie and tell you that I feel like I need a guy to be okay. And I’m certainly not going to lie and tell you that I write my blog posts to receive attention, praise, or compliments [especially this post].
No, it’s not easy to be single in a world that’s so focused on relationships, but also…No, I don’t feel like I need a guy to be okay. When he comes, he comes. But until then, my focus is on Jesus. And I definitely don’t write my blog posts trying to hint for praise, compliments, or attention. I am very thankful when people do comment and love my blog, but I don’t set out trying to write and bring attention to myself. Side note and a small rant: I started my blog because I had things to say and people began to read. I did not start this blog to generate attention and have people think I wrote it specifically to get others’ approval.
Like I said, God’s got this and although that may be hard to accept on some days [today being one of them], it’s still the truth and at the end of the day, I am thankful for it.
Because today turned out to be a great day. I went to Starbucks with a friend and had great, encouraging talks. I successfully understood everything my French professor said [in French!] and was able to respond back [in French!]. I ate lunch with a few long-lost friends from last semester. I was able to finish my homework early and therefore have small adventures. I worshiped Jesus with a bunch of people tonight at a campus ministry and then came home to find a beautiful bouquet of flowers and chocolates from my brother.
God sent me valentines throughout the entire day through different people. He loves me and I’m thankful that He calls me his daughter.
Oh, and I read a letter from Him, too. Best. Valentine. Ever.
“Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud. It does not dishonor others,
It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.”
– Corinthians 13:4-8