Written on June 3, 2011.
I realize I have not written on this blog in quite a long time.
You see, I’m graduating and it scares me, but it is also the reason why I have not sat down and written about my life and what I have observed. Time to change all that, I guess! Considering I graduate in 16 hours or so, I only have a few more hours of being able to talk about highschool memories without being looked at as old. 😛
Graduation has been on my mind since I was about six years old. The idea of college has haunted and excited me since I knew what a standardized test was. And the fact that I will be doing both of the previously mentioned things very very soon [graduating and then college] has kept me thinking about my life thus far and how I have grown and changed from the experiences I have gone through.
Graduation is closing a chapter of my life that has impacted me in ways I could’ve never imagined. God taught me A LOT through the anxiety attacks, high stress levels, crazy moments, caffeinated drinks, talks with friends, prayers with adults, minutes of endless laughter, and random moments that happened to strike me right where I needed it most.
James 1:12 became one of my favorite verses: “Anyone who meets a testing challenge head on and manages to stick it out is mighty fortunate. For such persons loyally in love with God and the reward is life and more life.” It helped me push through the endless chapters of history and health, solve the problems in physics, chemistry, and math, and write the last paragraphs to the endless amount of honors’ literature essays. Encouragement is not only found in people’s words, but through God’s Word, as well.
I’ve been taught a lot of lessons without the comfort of a classroom. Yes, I have been in classrooms for all of my school subjects, but some lessons you just cannot learn unless you experience things and learn them yourself. For instance, a teacher can say “do not procrastinate! you will not do well!” as much as they want, but you won’t actually believe them until you have procrastinated and you don’t do well…at least, that’s what has happened for me. I’m a “hands on” learner, as some would like to call it, and so I learn by experiencing things myself. I’m not saying this is an ideal way to learn, because in some cases, I have found that I had to learn the hard way while those around me figured out the lesson before it became mandatory. And with all this, God opened my eyes to another verse, 1 Corinthians 16:13-14, which says: “Keep your eyes open, hold tight to your convictions, give it all you’ve got, be resolute, and love without stopping.” Whatever you do, God tells you to never give up. God uses the obstacles in our lives to make us stronger. Even if you are a hands on learner like me, God will use that and have it glorify Himself in every way.
Just by reading some of my blog posts, I hope you can see how God has been teaching me so many things. High school was one obstacle after the other, but I’m coming out of it a stronger person, not only emotionally but also spiritually. I thank God for everything He’s done for me, for the good and for the bad. That’s easier said then done…thanking God for the bad things that’ve happened in my life. But I know that His plans are greater then mine and so who am I to judge His sovereignty?
So…when I graduate, I will probably cry. I will probably reminisce on the memories of high school with the people I have grown close to and love like siblings. I will most likely trip and fall in my 5 inch heels. But most importantly, when I graduate, I will be closing a chapter of my life where God taught me so much and I will open the new chapter that will show God’s faithfulness more in depth. Graduation’s scary, yes, because I’ve grown so used to it all, but God’s going to, once again, push me out of my comfort zone and He will make everything fit perfectly into His plan.
…and there you have it. A few last minute thoughts for you blog-readers before I walk down the aisle and receive my diploma.